PhilosphyMaher

Have you ever just had a bad day?  It’s like a downward spiral that you get into…it starts out as nothing really bad and then it just gets worse and worse.  I knew that I wasn’t in the mindset to work the room by myself the other night…but yet I just pushed on because there was nothing else to do.  I played all these games in my head to get into the mood but just couldn’t pull it off.  Then the downward spiral started, it’s like once you have a little bit of failure then it gets blown out of proportion.  The worst part about it was that I felt like I just didn’t care…normally I love to walk around and interact with folks…I love their stories and telling mine too…I love figuring out what they do and what gets them up in the morning.  But this was not me…I couldn’t get into that state of mind I and everyone else loves….I simply couldn’t think of anything to say and didn’t see anyone else as having anything interesting to say. It was a very weird sensation, it’s like I lost the lust for life.  

Confidence is like this too, you start out fine but if something shakes you then others can sense it and your success rate drops even faster.  What does one do when they are just tired of it…tired of all the energy and frustration that it takes.  Where do people find the energy?  How many people feel like this? 

So it’s the fact that we have a bad day that makes the good days that much better.  Feeling sad should be seen as a blessing that you care enough about yourself and your life that something does affect you that much.  If you didn’t get sad then you don’t have the intensity of life running through your veins and probably don’t experience that much happiness…or at least a high level of happiness that maybe some people don’t experience. 

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